1959
Me in the stroller, my sister's Marleen, Barbara, my brother Lee, sister Debbie and my mom
Twenty plus years ago I might not have liked it, as it would surface ugly memories I really wanted to forget. However, through the grace of God and many years of therapy, I can now look back and only focus on the good things, and of course that healing began when we started a family. 1982
Now don't get me wrong, my mother was always one to teach us girls all we needed to know.
About 1938
1961
Me, my sister Debbie and sister Barbara
My father on the other hand, underminded her and was the one who created all the conflict. I must admit, for a few years, probably more like a decade, I was mad at her for many reason, from not divorcing him, to not protecting us. What I began to learn as an adult, she was as much a victum as everyone else. I then began to honor her, for her courage, her strength, her devotion to God. I use to think she sold us out to him for her relationship to God, leaving us alone, but that was no way the situation. She needed God, and He was there for her, to help her rise above all she had to deal with. 1960
My sister Marleen, Me, sisters Debbie and Barbara, and brother Lee
1963
Me, my sister Barbara with her Godmother
Neighbor Cindy, me, sister Barbara and brother Bill
I was not an easy child for her as I rebelled from the disfunction and at one stage, thought I actually knew more then she did. How wrong I was and I am so grateful that through all of this, we grew closer together. So long as my dad was not around, I could cry, laugh, and share with my mother in many ways. Before she lost her battle with breast cancer, we were like a Mother and Daughter, just as we were suppose to be. As my daughter has said to me, I have said to her, "Because you loved me, I can love them" Thank you Mom for teaching me how to be a women, a mom and now a grandmother. I know you are watching over us.
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Aww, this was so neat to read...what great pictures.
ReplyDeleteWhat a wonderful post. I loved all the old photos as well.
ReplyDeleteWow, what a wonderful post. Thank you for sharing all of that with us, it is very special the way you now look back at all you leared from your mother.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing! What a beautiful post.
ReplyDeleteWe always look at things differently when we grow older through a different perspective.
what great pictures so sweet
ReplyDeleteI can't really remember when I started hosting this meme, but it is almost a year now. This has to be the most thoughtful, touching and honest post I have read. Thank you for sharing such intimate feelings that surely helped me look at my mom and our life a little differently and may have also touched others as well.
ReplyDeleteThank you all for the sincere and loving comments. Our Journey Through LIFE has had many roads, hills and mountains traveled. If it helps others, I see it as part of Gods plan.
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful post. It is amazing how clearly we can see the things that our parents went through once we are that age and raising a family ourselves.
ReplyDeleteI LOVE momories, and old photographs. Thanks for sharing!